i hate life. i shall slash myself or fall of the edge of a very tall building.
shall i tell you the worst 2 things that happened today?
ok, after sch we had to stay back for some speech training thingy to try on blazers, blouses, you name it, it's got it.
and we had to STRIP. yes to try on everything. and me and renee had to do it in the same room as velvet. yes, velvet. i was like OMG WTF. but we have to tahan. sighs, at least over.
ok, then worst thing, i did not get into house comm or council. nothing. nada.zilch.
i didn't expect anything but still i was so waiting to get home just so i could cry):
i mean i am so incredibly happy for those who got in. really. rach, nic, alex, eve, jae young, zenice, grace, natasha k, christine.
but when you see how many people got in, you feel inferior.
and now i seriously have nothing to live for anymore.
i came to school, hoping that i would have a shot at being something.
i am a nothing. a big pathetic selfish bitch.
except the sucky chairperson of 1S2, which i know velvet would do a better job of.
and rach, nic, alex, eve and chris got in! D: those are like some of my closest friends, and now they'll be so busy with council i'll hardly see them and pretty soon we'll drift apart! D:
waliao, i so do not believe this is happening. i guess i knew that i wudn't get in long time ago
but i just dun wanna lose my friends T.T
i seriously am considering flying back with my sis to study in the high school near her college.