okay, today seriously cant get any worse. i shall recount today's events.

1. i didn't bring my practical book for science.
2. SOMEONE didn't lock the bloody back door when they asked me the key for science lesson to go get their practical workbook. but i shall not pursue the matter. it's pointless anyway.
3. lao shi didnt come in today, so this new teacher came in. i didn't know what she talked about.
4. had to stay back for some MC stuff.
5. i didn't get in house comm or council. nothing.
6. i stink even worse than usual now.

the third and fourth point was the ultimate worst of all. okay, the fifth point was something i randomly wanted to write down.

and yeah, we had to stay back to get our blazers for speech day MC thing. We were brought into this small tiny enclosed room and was asked to strip THERE. AND VELVET WAS THERE. ME AND MAT WAS LIKE OMFG. heng lah, only got two female teachers, me, mat and velvet. we were supposed to take off everything except our bra and underwear. sick man. i felt so naked yet airy when wearing the thing. we cant wear pants underneath the skirt cause it will make our asses look puffed up. my ass doesnt need anymore puffing up thank you very much. i saw mat's bra. velvet saw my bra. O.O the back not the front. if it was the front, i would have fainted.

the results for house comm and council came out. me and mat didn't get in. so many nice people who should have gotten in didn't. while some real bitches got in. i wont name anyone in particular. oh God, so help Crescent. it will soon turn into a living nightmare. Nic got into BOTH house comm AND council. while rach got into council. YAY SO HAPPY FOR THEM (((: not just them. got many others from our class also.
Like Alex, Evelyn, Jie Hui, Natasha Kwik, Zenice, Jae Young, Grace, Chris and many many more.
they deserve it. congrats!
i need a chance just one more chance. I wasn't anything in primary school. not a prefect, nothing. NOTHING. now i cant be anything in secondary school either. im worse than most people. almost all my friends were like prefects, head prefects, all these stuff. but me? i was nothing. the school doesnt remember me for anything i did. and people complain to me that they feel bad?
but nevermind.
I SHALL NOT LOOSE HOPE.
AIM FOR CCA CHAIR! I MUST GET THIS. MUST.
and salwa said there's another interview. if there really is , im going for it. IM NOT GIVING UP! EVEN IF THERE'S A TINY LITTLE BIT IF HOPE LEFT! I SHALL CLING ONTO IT. CAUSE MICROSCOPIC HOPE IS BETTER THAN NO HOPE!

THANK YOU Salwa, Stella, Rachel, Nic and Mat for comforting me. ILY LOADS!

i am pissed not only at the fact that i din get into anything, but i cant get a correct answer. some say oh there's another interview for those that got chosen. some say there's no more chances. some say there's chance in sec 2. some say there'schance in sec 3. thats it. im gonna ask Ms Ang when we have PE tmr. i need answers.

Mat's taking this real hard. almost EVERY one of OUR best friends got in for council, or house comm. but WE got nothing D: darn it. dont be sad mat ): im worse than you! at least you have your chairmanship to fall back on.

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans i have for you,' declares the Lord," plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and future."

and the last part. Zenice didn't sign out the key so we wont get a gotcha. its my fault. i shouldnt have let her go take the key in the first place. i hate myself.